I don’t know which life I miss more, either living in North Carolina with my mum, grandma, and grandfather.
Or when my dad was in my life as a drunk and I’d party every weekend with him and his friends and a whole bunch of people.
I’ve basically experienced so many life styles from having a big house with the ones I love, living on the streets by myself when my mom was dating an abusive douche-bag and I was too scared to sleep inside. And now my life is just blank and empty.
Literally nothing new happens anymore.
My grandmothers dead, my grandfathers on his deathbed, my grandma and grandpa that’s still alive lives in North Carolina and they’re still youngish but I don’t see them often. My dad doesn’t care anymore, and my mom’s with a newer guy and spending her new life with him.
I guess I just feel like the odd one out in heartbreak.
You know, I’m only about 17. (Turning 17 in less than 20 days.) And I’m already worrying about bills, food in the fridge, and even the fact I’m moving ON MY OWN within a year to New York in my own house.
I mean it’s nice, but shit, friends are coming and going, family is dying, everyone is backstabbing.
I just feel like a whole new life is going to break my in half and I CAN’T change it, because the reason my life is changing is because reality is hitting me in the face and family and friends are just dying or leaving.
Life is not what you expected as a kid when you WANTED to grow up.
And growing up fucking sucks.
When you relate to this and realize you aren’t alone it’s a nice feeling…
I have this weird theory that some people are drawn to each other because their atoms were near each other when the universe was created and over time the same atoms keep coming back together
DID YOU JUST SCIENTIFICALLY EXPLAIN SOUL MATES?!
It’s too early to be thinking about this shit
one girl scrolled past this and woke up without boobs
Forever reblog cuz I don’t wanna wake up without boobs.
The fucking notes
MORE THAN 8M IM CRYING
IM ALREADY LITERALLY FLAT THIS CAN NOT HAPPEN TO ME REBLOG